I write, and sometimes illustrate my characters. I used to make levels on LittleBigPlanet, and had an overly ambitious level that I considered spinning off into its own game. Problem is, I have trouble with motivation and internal validation, with few external sources for either. Most of my writing is done as part of shared story exercises so that I know people are waiting on me if I'm not writing. The last time I wrote something independently was in 2017, as part of a creative writing course which I also used to validate what I do. Most of my drawing happens when I'm somewhere I'd rather not be, but I have to be there, so I doodle to occupy my eyes and hands. Sometimes I'll do digital art as a way to get over frustration or despair. I also digitally draw my own avatars, which is the rare instance when I'll ever attempt to color anything.
A few years back I compiled as many doodles as I could find and archived them in a little scrapbook project. I meant for it to be a yearly thing, but between a lack of doodle-time (and thus a lack of scraps), life's pressures creeping in, and the rest of me, I lost my motivation. I put two of them on Deviantart with a bunch of commentary (because I am insecure about what people would think if I didn't explain a dozen times that I don't like how most of it turned out, or exactly what I was thinking, or that I swear I'm not a furry and that my interests just happen to be furry-adjacent), as well as two character specific compilations with more directed commentary (again an abandoned series).
You can see them here:
2012-2013 --
2013-2014 --
2015
Here's a compilation of my more complete writings from my 2017 creative writing class. I haven't read it in a while, and a fair bit of it is non-fiction with incriminating details, and I'm going to be embarrassed by all of it by default. The last story features a character in my 2015 doodles, but the rest are unassociated with those illustrations, which are more to do with what I write in the shared story exercises I mentioned earlier.
Those are a weirder format most similar to a written roleplaying story you might see on a forum like this. Some of the writing is expositive or clunky out of necessity for informing the other writers, which is a convenient cushion if any of it reads poorly. And because I'm dumping all of my creative stuff from the past decade or so, here's where my writing starts in each I was involved with. They're named by the themed setting/idea of each story.
I don't know how well any of it reads without the writer's context. We maintain a separate thread for discussing the behind the scenes situations, so sometimes plots get dropped or writers have to leave abruptly, and stories get shitcanned or entire story threads wither up altogether. I usually try to stick it to the end, and I was actually pretty happy with the ending of Capital. 2015 was a good year for me.
I am definitely bombarding you with too much because I'm afraid someone is actually going to look at or read any of this and form thoughts about me because of it.
I've also toyed with music, but my mind is too chaotic to remember the melodies I come up with.
If I had increasing time and decreasing responsibility, and maybe a little more faith in the world, I'd love to just explore as many forms of artistic expression as I could.
DSCF7427_2 by TIKI, on Flickr
DSCF7059-2 by TIKI, on Flickr
DSCF5317_1 by TIKI, on Flickr
DSCF4895 by TIKI, on Flickr
DSCF4521 by TIKI, on Flickr
