I met this hot girl a few months ago and to make a long story short she wanted us to start a "friends with benefit". She made it clear that it was just physical, no emotions but I had started to notice changes in the "rituals" leading up to the sex. It started as simple I go to her place or she comes to mine and we have sex and leave after to me cooking for her and she staying overnight.
None of this bothered me until Wednesday, we were started having sex and she got on top of me and she started caressing my face while riding (such a crude term) me and then started looking at me in the eyes, I try to look somewhere else but she turned my head back. Eye contact during sex makes me feel very weird but that wasn't what freaked me out, what freaked me out was the look on her face, she seemed genuinely happy, I have never seen her like that and no am not that good to illicit such a reaction especially less than 5 minutes in. No one has ever looked at me like that, I was so freaked out that I lost my erection. She was very understanding and moved on as if nothing was wrong, she choose to stay the night as if it was the most normal thing which kinda annoyed me.
After that, I started looking at past things in a new lens and keep coming to the conclusion that she has feelings for me, this seems to freak me out for no reason, it's not the first time that another human being has had romantic feelings for me so why do I feel so strange, earlier today she called wanting to come over and I reluctantly agreed, I for the life of me can't figure out why, she's beautiful and wants to have sex me, I have the sex drive of a teenager with terrible social skills, all for this should be great but it's making me feel nervous, does intimacy scare me that much? I am such a weirdo, she's gonna be here in a hour and still wanting to bail.
None of this bothered me until Wednesday, we were started having sex and she got on top of me and she started caressing my face while riding (such a crude term) me and then started looking at me in the eyes, I try to look somewhere else but she turned my head back. Eye contact during sex makes me feel very weird but that wasn't what freaked me out, what freaked me out was the look on her face, she seemed genuinely happy, I have never seen her like that and no am not that good to illicit such a reaction especially less than 5 minutes in. No one has ever looked at me like that, I was so freaked out that I lost my erection. She was very understanding and moved on as if nothing was wrong, she choose to stay the night as if it was the most normal thing which kinda annoyed me.
After that, I started looking at past things in a new lens and keep coming to the conclusion that she has feelings for me, this seems to freak me out for no reason, it's not the first time that another human being has had romantic feelings for me so why do I feel so strange, earlier today she called wanting to come over and I reluctantly agreed, I for the life of me can't figure out why, she's beautiful and wants to have sex me, I have the sex drive of a teenager with terrible social skills, all for this should be great but it's making me feel nervous, does intimacy scare me that much? I am such a weirdo, she's gonna be here in a hour and still wanting to bail.