If anyone is vaguely interested in my somewhat schizophrenic journey, I decided last night to main PC (controller). 144hz and smoothness beats the easier competition on console, and at my level I am equal or better than most I play with controller aim.
I finally, for the first time ever, tried the bronze playlist. After a hot drop by two teammates that abandoned me ended in disaster I followed up with a 5 kill4th place finish and greatly enjoyed gaining rank points as it finally felt like the missing link to playing a Battle Royale and not being as frustrated at losing and "wasting time". That is always my barrier to investing in these games, and I wish I had discovered/read about the ranked system sooner. Anyways, still Bronze 4, still stuck at 2 wins after too many games, but finished second twice more and went ahead and bought the PC battledress.
Still actively looking for people to play ranked with!