I really just don't have any words. Wasn't a huge fan of Etika, never saw a stream of his live but I used to watch some highlight clips of his on YouTube, mainly Smash related. I saw all the threads about the rapid deterioration of his mental state and how it was becoming dangerously close to suicide, but I just scrolled past. Not because I felt like he was lying, quite the opposite. I kind of accepted that he was going to commit suicide almost days before he actually did it. I don't know why I just accepted it so quickly, and I'm frankly ashamed of myself that I just kept on scrolling, but at the same time I can't think of what one person could have done to help him. A positive message maybe? I don't know. All I know is that he's gone and it's fucking unfair. It's bullshit. It's not fucking FAIR. He tried to speak out and got laughed at. I can't help but think about what his thoughts were in his final moments. How disappointed he must have been in the people who he thought loved him. I'm just rambling at this point, so I'll wrap it up; I'm sorry Etika. I'm sorry I ignored you at your weakest point. You deserved so much better. I know suicide is never the answer, but I can only hope that you've found peace now. Rest in piece Desmond. May this be a lesson to us all.