I don't know if this will make you feel better or not, but it really sounds like she was looking for a way to end it.
Sorry, OP, I know you don't want to hear "it gets better", but it will. Just try to keep yourself busy, try creating something new: art, writing, music, whatever, just start and focus on that.
And it really would help to meet different people, but I'm not sure how to do that in your case. For me, I would like an intramural sport, like kickball, but it sounds like that might be out of the question for you. There must be some kind of group activity in your area.
I would just really avoid letting her be a crutch, even if she does come back and wants to be "friends", you need more support than that.
Cheers, it'll get better.
Sorry, OP, I know you don't want to hear "it gets better", but it will. Just try to keep yourself busy, try creating something new: art, writing, music, whatever, just start and focus on that.
And it really would help to meet different people, but I'm not sure how to do that in your case. For me, I would like an intramural sport, like kickball, but it sounds like that might be out of the question for you. There must be some kind of group activity in your area.
I would just really avoid letting her be a crutch, even if she does come back and wants to be "friends", you need more support than that.
Cheers, it'll get better.