Life hasn't been great for me the past few years, and it just keeps getting exponentially worse.
I've been doing a lot of self reflection, but the major factor of it, is me. I'm the common denominator in all the deficiencies of my life. I've spent the last few years trying to be more than a worthless loser, but reality says that would be overstating myself by quite a bit. There is no help available when the problem is everything you see in the mirror. I'm too far gone to even start putting myself back together into something worth a damn.
ERA, you've at least tried to help me out and that was somewhat touching. If I could feel anything, it would probably warm my heart just a bit. As such, I felt I should at least say goodbye to someone. For what it's worth, congrats. I'd say it was fun, but I don't know what that's like.
With that said, that makes this a Goodbye.
I remember your old thread. When I read It I was in a bad spot too, but I still tried to write something encouraging because no one deserves to feel like you felt at the time. You probably missed it but that's ok, it was nothing memorable I assure you. The point is, I had a job interview the next day but I was planning not to go, I just felt incredibly unprepared and a bundle of anxiety. I felt like a Failure. But seeing everyone doing their best to cheer you up have me gave me new strenght. We are more than our accomplishments, we influence things outside of our control and we can have a positive effect on people without even knowing it. Your thread helped me reflect on myself and I seized an opportunity that I was already prepared to abandon. I will deliberately abstain from telling you how the interview went, because It doesn't fucking matter. Please think about how many things you could still do for others and yourself by simply living. PLEASE.
Sorry for the broken english ;(