No, I didn't actively make anyone's life hell. At the same time, I assuredly made them feel unwelcome in an organization that I was running at the time. It was a religious organization and at the time I thought the position was the correct one within the context of the religious organization (everyone in the discussion was in the org and the matter being discussed was an organizational matter). The subject matter is inconsequential to this discussion on Era other than to say that it prompted them to ultimately leave the organization. I always felt uncomfortable about it, but thought that it was just what was required of me to keep everyone on the same page, rather than a personal conviction of some kind. I would not assume that they've given it much or any thought since those days, but I have as my understanding and perspective have evolved and changed completely on the subjects upon which we disagreed at the time over our email conversation. Not like they needed any validation from me nor was I seeking to offer any; I just wanted to apologize and let them know that they have one less obstacle on the planet than they did a decade ago. No more, no less.No, but if you actively made someone's life hell doubt they want you to speak to them to clear your own conscious
Yeah.We've all done things we aren't proud of. The benefit of time, growth, and reflection is that we become better people through it. The only people who deserve scorn for things they have done in the past are those that learned nothing from it and instead continue or worsened their behavior.
Via some mutual hometown friends, I was re-acquainted with a guy who bullied the shit out of me growing up. Without any prompting from me, he actually apologized for it all at a party we were both at. Being too terrified to tell him how I really felt, I said it was fine. I ended up walking away from that conversation with nothing but anxiety and pain. Regardless of what he said or how he said it, I felt like I had gone back in time and was reduced to this pathetic little kid again. All the personal growth I had gone through in the years after high school were temporarily reduced to nothing in that moment.To everyone recommending against reaching out and apologizing - really? You wouldn't even want to a brief dm? It'd make me feel a little better knowing an asshole feels remorse and is taking steps to change. Maybe I'm just underestimating how bad some of you guys got it. :/