Its been nearly 1 year since my breakup and I'm still upset about it. The girl I fell in love with slowly changed into someone who didn't want a future with me and I just feel like none of it was real.
I know people have had worse breakups than me, but I'm not a very social person and to have had someone who understood me so well just go away fucking hurts.
I have constantly been telling myself in my head, I'm the reason she left (which it wasn't but I always feel like it was) she's better without me, there is no other girl out there for me, nobody will like me for who I am because I'm weird as fuck, I'm going to be single for the rest of my life.
I honestly don't know where to go from here, I don't see myself in another relationship for a very long time or forever and whenever I see a couple or family with kids I always go "I'm never going to experience that ever again"
I've tried to move on but so far I'm only pretending to be happy because I have things that remind me daily of my ex and what we enjoyed doing together.
I don't go to the gym because I can't afford it.
I know people have had worse breakups than me, but I'm not a very social person and to have had someone who understood me so well just go away fucking hurts.
I have constantly been telling myself in my head, I'm the reason she left (which it wasn't but I always feel like it was) she's better without me, there is no other girl out there for me, nobody will like me for who I am because I'm weird as fuck, I'm going to be single for the rest of my life.
I honestly don't know where to go from here, I don't see myself in another relationship for a very long time or forever and whenever I see a couple or family with kids I always go "I'm never going to experience that ever again"
I've tried to move on but so far I'm only pretending to be happy because I have things that remind me daily of my ex and what we enjoyed doing together.
I don't go to the gym because I can't afford it.