Hey ERA,
I'm the kind of person that very rarely remembers their dreams, in fact I often feel like I don't dream at all most nights. In fact, the one I'm going to talk about was probably more of a vivid thought while laying in bed half-awake rather than a full blown dream, but's let's brush aside those technicalities for the purposes of this thread, shall we?
Yesterday I dreamt about having a girlfriend... And it wasn't the first time. I know for sure that I've dreamt with that same person two or three times before. I don't think anything romantic or sexual happened in those first couple of dreams, we were just hanging out, laughing or doing mundane stuff, but to be honest I only have the feeling that I dreamt about her before, I have only but the faintest recollection of that happening.
However, yesterday's dream really shook me to the core. We were at her house, with her dad in the room (him being a completely made up person, I could clearly see his face on the dream, unlike my supposed girlfriend). But then, at some point we left the room and went somewhere more quiet to talk and, for the first time in these dreams, kiss... And then, I said something along these lines: "You know, it somehow feels like I couldn't remember who you are, but it doesn't really matter anymore... I love you for who you are now".
I instantly woke up after saying that. "Wow", I thought, "this is really fucked up...". I started to really try to remember anything about these dreams and I realized that I couldn't really remmber her face, just her body shape, and of course, I believe that she looked like my ex, although I feel like she behaved in a slightly different way and had a different hair style. I also think that the dream logic is that I had had some sort of accident which caused me amnesia, so I knew I was in a relationship with this person even though I didn't really know her, but then again I may be extrapolating far too much based on the last quote.
Anyway, sadly it makes sense that I would dream about something like this. I'm single for the first time in my adult life after a 13 year relationship with my first and only girlfriend. She always was (and still is) the most important person in my life, and I still care very deeply about her even though we broke up because I wasn't sure if I loved her anymore after some bad things she did to me that lead me to go to therapy for years... It's been six months and somehow I feel like I miss her more now than the first couple of months after breaking up. I've been feeling specially down lately and I guess I miss having someone to talk to, and just being comfortable around someone. But yeah, this is probably a bit of a warning sign that I'm dwelling too much in the past and that perhaps after 6 months it's time to try again with someone new...
Oh well! Sorry about the rambling, I had to get it off my chest. So, what was your saddest dream ever, ERA?
I'm the kind of person that very rarely remembers their dreams, in fact I often feel like I don't dream at all most nights. In fact, the one I'm going to talk about was probably more of a vivid thought while laying in bed half-awake rather than a full blown dream, but's let's brush aside those technicalities for the purposes of this thread, shall we?
Yesterday I dreamt about having a girlfriend... And it wasn't the first time. I know for sure that I've dreamt with that same person two or three times before. I don't think anything romantic or sexual happened in those first couple of dreams, we were just hanging out, laughing or doing mundane stuff, but to be honest I only have the feeling that I dreamt about her before, I have only but the faintest recollection of that happening.
However, yesterday's dream really shook me to the core. We were at her house, with her dad in the room (him being a completely made up person, I could clearly see his face on the dream, unlike my supposed girlfriend). But then, at some point we left the room and went somewhere more quiet to talk and, for the first time in these dreams, kiss... And then, I said something along these lines: "You know, it somehow feels like I couldn't remember who you are, but it doesn't really matter anymore... I love you for who you are now".
I instantly woke up after saying that. "Wow", I thought, "this is really fucked up...". I started to really try to remember anything about these dreams and I realized that I couldn't really remmber her face, just her body shape, and of course, I believe that she looked like my ex, although I feel like she behaved in a slightly different way and had a different hair style. I also think that the dream logic is that I had had some sort of accident which caused me amnesia, so I knew I was in a relationship with this person even though I didn't really know her, but then again I may be extrapolating far too much based on the last quote.
Anyway, sadly it makes sense that I would dream about something like this. I'm single for the first time in my adult life after a 13 year relationship with my first and only girlfriend. She always was (and still is) the most important person in my life, and I still care very deeply about her even though we broke up because I wasn't sure if I loved her anymore after some bad things she did to me that lead me to go to therapy for years... It's been six months and somehow I feel like I miss her more now than the first couple of months after breaking up. I've been feeling specially down lately and I guess I miss having someone to talk to, and just being comfortable around someone. But yeah, this is probably a bit of a warning sign that I'm dwelling too much in the past and that perhaps after 6 months it's time to try again with someone new...
Oh well! Sorry about the rambling, I had to get it off my chest. So, what was your saddest dream ever, ERA?
