Not drawing more consistently over the years is one of my biggest regrets now that i'm finally trying to make a career out of it. I always had a talent for it, but I was always doubtful of how successful i could become. Ain't nothing left to do but make the work, roll the dice and will it into existence
Often I would go for months without drawing. Sometimes I wouldn't find the will to do more than just randomly doodle for a year or more if I was too focused on other things. Such is being young and dumb. There is a kind of anxiety comes with it when you are not very good yet that often makes it hard to even put pen to paper - you put all this time, energy and focus into trying to make something good and improve - and you still aren't satisfied with the result much of the time because it isn't what you expected it to be. There seems to be a great chasm between what you can do and what you want to do, and you don't know how you will ever cross it.
That kind of doesn't ever go away even once you become good though so get used to it and embrace the failure and frustration as signs that you are pushing yourself and making progress. At this point I know enough to understand that if I have a real struggle with a piece to get it right, I should not feel too discouraged because I am being forced to solve problems that I don't quite know the answer to yet, and learning that it is what will take me to the next level instead of just hanging out in my comfort zone. That being said the Goldilocks method works best - if you try to punch too high above your pay grade too quickly you will get discouraged and just want to quit.
