I just wanted to vent.
I'm white and I work as a cook.
In this new kitchen I work at I'm given the pseudo title of supervisor as I'm basically assigned all the more difficult tasks due to my experience, but they won't officially call me a supervisor. I have been outright told that the people I work with are very green and so they should be watched. So this one person in particular I have to watch to make sure he doesn't do things like put pink salt in a salad, etc.
At some point my experience, conferring my role of authority, was waylaid by this individual leveling the suspicion that I'm of white privilege.
I have had to work twelve years, eight as a dishwasher,attend culinary school, just to finally land a very difficult job that pays enough to enable me to go back to college.
I know I have some privilege but I also think that I've had less privilege than others, just to be fair to myself.
So like I tried to like play along with these constant jokes. He tried to get me to say the n word on multiple occasions. I'm trying to work with the person. But he is doing nothing and then getting in my way as I try to work.
Today I finally went to the chef and just brought it all up. He wanted me to have a talk with the other coworker but I think the person in question has a fundamental disrespectful attitude where race has become his sort of way to minimize my authority. I then just said I felt disgust and didn't want to talk about it.
I feel disgusted by this idea that I'm somehow racist and I feel disgusted by this person who clearly has no respect for me. I just don't feel like I want to sit down with someone and hear them become all soft spoken and nice when their job is in question when before they were a blatant asshole.
Is that the wrong thing to do? Should I hear him out?
One thing I've noticed over the years is that variants of this type of person will always show up. I'm hoping that if I move up in life I will escape this type of person.
Someone that just doesn't like that you've developed a trust with some authority, and then will in turn try to attack you simply as you don't present like an asshole.
Sometimes I wonder if I would be better off just being an asshole.
One of my chefs described me as the nicest person in the kitchen.
Is that just the nature of people that they'll attack you unless you always are on guard?
If you have something they don't have?
Even if it's something so miniscule and unquantifiable as respect?
I'm white and I work as a cook.
In this new kitchen I work at I'm given the pseudo title of supervisor as I'm basically assigned all the more difficult tasks due to my experience, but they won't officially call me a supervisor. I have been outright told that the people I work with are very green and so they should be watched. So this one person in particular I have to watch to make sure he doesn't do things like put pink salt in a salad, etc.
At some point my experience, conferring my role of authority, was waylaid by this individual leveling the suspicion that I'm of white privilege.
I have had to work twelve years, eight as a dishwasher,attend culinary school, just to finally land a very difficult job that pays enough to enable me to go back to college.
I know I have some privilege but I also think that I've had less privilege than others, just to be fair to myself.
So like I tried to like play along with these constant jokes. He tried to get me to say the n word on multiple occasions. I'm trying to work with the person. But he is doing nothing and then getting in my way as I try to work.
Today I finally went to the chef and just brought it all up. He wanted me to have a talk with the other coworker but I think the person in question has a fundamental disrespectful attitude where race has become his sort of way to minimize my authority. I then just said I felt disgust and didn't want to talk about it.
I feel disgusted by this idea that I'm somehow racist and I feel disgusted by this person who clearly has no respect for me. I just don't feel like I want to sit down with someone and hear them become all soft spoken and nice when their job is in question when before they were a blatant asshole.
Is that the wrong thing to do? Should I hear him out?
One thing I've noticed over the years is that variants of this type of person will always show up. I'm hoping that if I move up in life I will escape this type of person.
Someone that just doesn't like that you've developed a trust with some authority, and then will in turn try to attack you simply as you don't present like an asshole.
Sometimes I wonder if I would be better off just being an asshole.
One of my chefs described me as the nicest person in the kitchen.
Is that just the nature of people that they'll attack you unless you always are on guard?
If you have something they don't have?
Even if it's something so miniscule and unquantifiable as respect?
