A lot if this sounds like you could be trans at least. And cis people usually don't worry about that kind of stuff.
You could try to dip your feet into presenting as a woman maybe? Since you posted in here it's likely no one in your real life connects your account here to you. So if you want you can change your account here to "female". Or maybe just us in here in this thread can view you as a woman.
If you don't want to that's fine as well and doesn't change if you are trans or not. That is ultimately always for you to decide.
Thanks for the reply! That might actually be a good idea, but I think that I need to go a little farther on until I decide whether to do so or not. I'm still at the stage where I know that I would want to be a woman, but don't see myself as a woman in any real way; whether that makes me trans or not is something I need to figure out myself and through therapy.
As a small update, I haven't done anything yet but I did look into therapists/counsellors in my area and, whilst doing so, these feelings felt a lot more 'real' than they had even before. I'm going to continue looking and hopefully I should be able to book an appointment before I leave university (in July); if I can't then it's going to be a lot more difficult finding that help without at the very least making my family suspicious. Thankfully I'm not incredibly fearful of a negative reaction if/when I do come out (though that only really extends to my closest family members, unfortunately) but I'd rather do that on my own time after I've figured everything out.
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