Or at least, that's how shit I've been feeling for the past few days.
You know when deep down you know it went bad, it was shorter than you expected, and you keep thinking "oh shit why didn't I said that when they asked me those things? I had it prepared before!"? Awful, awful feeling.
Another awful think is knowing that you were good for the job, you just happened to screw up the chance to prove it.
So, I've been job hunting pretty hard in the past 2-3 months, as the company I work for now has become pretty stale and all that.
After weeks of nothing I get 3 interviews lined up: one out of nowhere from a big Japanese company, something that could change my life; the second one is a company calling me back after 3 rounds of interviews back in Summer when they then disappeared, called me back last week to tell me that they just had to keep everything on hold and now wants to hear me again; and then a third one which is still to be defined.
The first one is the one I wanted to vent on about, which has been haunting me for days. Since their reply asking me when could I have been available (Friday of last week) to the actualy interview (Thursday), I've had 5 days to brush up my awful Japanese, writing down possible questions and replies as preparation, and also doing an online aptitude test (thank God it was a personality test only, and not something with math or statistics which are pretty famous in Japan). So yeah, super stressfull 5 days of preparations while of course going on with my regular job, which was a total shit for this week, between clients' pressures and the whole COVID-19 outbreak. Not really the best time to have this interview at all.
Then interview day (or night, as it was 4AM here) comes: I try to calm down, suit up and get online. Of course I start by not expecting 4 people on the other side of the screen, that already makes me anxious. We break the ice with a couple of jokes, then I admit that I am very nervous and would like if possible to only speak in a more simplified Japanese to not create any confusion. Sure they say, they have plenty of foreigners in the company. Still, I actually start feeling super pressured, fumble a lot and had to restart a few sentences mid-way throug, had to ask to repeat a couple of questions, at a couple of points I straight up asked a moment to check the term on the dictionary. Better than to stay mute or reply "I don't know", I tought.
Of course it's impossible for me to discern if my skill level was within expectations, or if I actually did badly. They must have known checking my resumé, no? But damn, it is already hard to sell yourself in your own language, let alone another one!
Still, even if I got only basic questions ("tell us about yourself", "tell us about your current job", "why do you want to work in this industry" and so on), and I spoke badly, I still got to answer all the questions. Then of course, who knows if, even past the language barrier, my replies where clear and satisfactory.
There is also the cultural gap to consider: maybe I shouldn't feel worried that they were silent after every question, that they kept taking notes on pads and so on, that they asked themselves "are you good?" "yeah i'm good", and so on. It's the first time I did an interview in Japanese, maybe what I think has been perceived badly was actually good, and vice versa.
The biggest fear factor for me is that the interview, at least from my previous experiences, was short: I was reserved a 1 hour spot, and it only lasted 25 minutes + greetings. When I looked at the clock after I logged off, and saw that it was only 4:30, I wanted to bang my head against the table. This is bad isn't it? I've heard that Japanese interviews actually are pretty long, so this being short is nothing but a bad sign to my eyes.
It's been 4 days and I keep switching from "yeah 99,9% it's gone to shit and i should brace myself for the refusal", to "jesus I knew I should have replied more in depth!" to "maybe, mayyyyybe there is still a 00,01% chance?".
I hate these feelings. I feel like I'm trapped until I have a reply, but on the other hand I don't wanna get hurt by the bad news.
Do you have any similar experiences ERA? Where your guts always right in this case after? Or have you ever been plesantly, or maybe not pleasantly, surprised after an interview you knew was bad/good? What do you do in these situations? Should I just stop obsessing over this stuff?
tl;dl sorry i just had to vent out as i have a bad feeling for a job i really, really wanted and want to soften up the incoming hard truth
You know when deep down you know it went bad, it was shorter than you expected, and you keep thinking "oh shit why didn't I said that when they asked me those things? I had it prepared before!"? Awful, awful feeling.
Another awful think is knowing that you were good for the job, you just happened to screw up the chance to prove it.
So, I've been job hunting pretty hard in the past 2-3 months, as the company I work for now has become pretty stale and all that.
After weeks of nothing I get 3 interviews lined up: one out of nowhere from a big Japanese company, something that could change my life; the second one is a company calling me back after 3 rounds of interviews back in Summer when they then disappeared, called me back last week to tell me that they just had to keep everything on hold and now wants to hear me again; and then a third one which is still to be defined.
The first one is the one I wanted to vent on about, which has been haunting me for days. Since their reply asking me when could I have been available (Friday of last week) to the actualy interview (Thursday), I've had 5 days to brush up my awful Japanese, writing down possible questions and replies as preparation, and also doing an online aptitude test (thank God it was a personality test only, and not something with math or statistics which are pretty famous in Japan). So yeah, super stressfull 5 days of preparations while of course going on with my regular job, which was a total shit for this week, between clients' pressures and the whole COVID-19 outbreak. Not really the best time to have this interview at all.
Then interview day (or night, as it was 4AM here) comes: I try to calm down, suit up and get online. Of course I start by not expecting 4 people on the other side of the screen, that already makes me anxious. We break the ice with a couple of jokes, then I admit that I am very nervous and would like if possible to only speak in a more simplified Japanese to not create any confusion. Sure they say, they have plenty of foreigners in the company. Still, I actually start feeling super pressured, fumble a lot and had to restart a few sentences mid-way throug, had to ask to repeat a couple of questions, at a couple of points I straight up asked a moment to check the term on the dictionary. Better than to stay mute or reply "I don't know", I tought.
Of course it's impossible for me to discern if my skill level was within expectations, or if I actually did badly. They must have known checking my resumé, no? But damn, it is already hard to sell yourself in your own language, let alone another one!
Still, even if I got only basic questions ("tell us about yourself", "tell us about your current job", "why do you want to work in this industry" and so on), and I spoke badly, I still got to answer all the questions. Then of course, who knows if, even past the language barrier, my replies where clear and satisfactory.
There is also the cultural gap to consider: maybe I shouldn't feel worried that they were silent after every question, that they kept taking notes on pads and so on, that they asked themselves "are you good?" "yeah i'm good", and so on. It's the first time I did an interview in Japanese, maybe what I think has been perceived badly was actually good, and vice versa.
The biggest fear factor for me is that the interview, at least from my previous experiences, was short: I was reserved a 1 hour spot, and it only lasted 25 minutes + greetings. When I looked at the clock after I logged off, and saw that it was only 4:30, I wanted to bang my head against the table. This is bad isn't it? I've heard that Japanese interviews actually are pretty long, so this being short is nothing but a bad sign to my eyes.
It's been 4 days and I keep switching from "yeah 99,9% it's gone to shit and i should brace myself for the refusal", to "jesus I knew I should have replied more in depth!" to "maybe, mayyyyybe there is still a 00,01% chance?".
I hate these feelings. I feel like I'm trapped until I have a reply, but on the other hand I don't wanna get hurt by the bad news.
Do you have any similar experiences ERA? Where your guts always right in this case after? Or have you ever been plesantly, or maybe not pleasantly, surprised after an interview you knew was bad/good? What do you do in these situations? Should I just stop obsessing over this stuff?
tl;dl sorry i just had to vent out as i have a bad feeling for a job i really, really wanted and want to soften up the incoming hard truth
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