Alright, wow! I don't know what to say. Honestly, I made this thread because I thought game devs would like to know how important their work can be. But right now I am blown away by your kindness. I saw many comments saying this thread is full of negative and judgmental posts, and I am grateful for your concern, and you might be right, but I didn't see it that way. In my eyes, this thread is filled with empathy, only in different ways. I appreciate every single one of you.
Now, last night I wasn't feeling good at all, that's why I wasn't able to answer your kindness earlier. And now I feel better, so bear with my bad english, and let me have a few words with you wonderful creatures.
Lots of you guys saying I should talk to a therapist, and you're right, and I know that. So why I haven't done that already? Well, first of all, it's hard to express my thoughts to anyone. It's a combination of existential crisis, self-hatred, and fears. Lots of stupid fears. And then, I don't trust them. Most of them just want to milk you and say everything will be alright and give you tons of medicine. But, I guess I have to give it a chance. So thanks to anyone who recommended that. I appreciate your concern.
To "you need to find better/deeper ways to enjoy life. If a game is your only reason, you need help and it's sad" comments. I know your intention is helping, but that's not the best way in my opinion. I didn't get offended or sad or something because of your comments, but there's a chance that someday somebody gets hurt by this words. Look, I know it's not good for a 23 year old human being to be excited about living just for a game. I know I need help and I need more/better reasons. But this is just the way it is sometimes. I have to live with it for now and it sucks and reminding it may have a huge effect on someone else. I appreciate your help, but please, put yourself in people's shoes first if you want to help them, if you actually want to help them.
To "But isn't TLoU a depressing game? I don't think it'll cheer you up" comments. This was the most surprising aspect of this thread to me. It was sort of a reminder. Isn't it wonderful how the same piece of art can have so many different effects on us? Like, I get many people don't want to struggle with something depressing when they already have to struggle with their own problems, but it's the opposite for many of us. I need to share my pain with a painful art to feel better. It can be music, movies, tv shows, or games. It's insane how something can lead us in a totally different ways.
Someone said you should play Nintendo games. YOU ARE RIGHT MY FRIEND. You are painfully right. I want to play those joyful games so bad. But I guess you can't have everything you want.
I saw many great humans here. People who care about the others. People who write about their own struggle and problems. And please, I'd be more than happy if this thread would be a place just for sharing our problems. Just opening up for whatever reason. I appreciate that as well. I know how tough it is. Thanks for sharing. And I can't believe people sent me DMs and asking me if I want to talk with them and I haven't responded to them yet. You have no Idea how mind blowing and beautiful was that to me.
Alright, lets have it done. You guys are great. Seriously. Please keep being kind. Empathy is one of the better features of us human beings. Please keep being yourself. There are people around the word that need your empathy. Knowing that there's people like you, makes me feel a little bit better about this terrifying world.
And then? And then we'll be okay.