Hello ERA,
This is the first thread I've ever posted, I've never felt comfortable with putting any thoughts out there front and centre.
However I wanted to say a massive thankyou to TransERA for helping me finally take that first step after so many years of hiding and self loathing, for being so welcoming and understanding and generous with their time. Thankyou all for helping me come to terms with being transgender.
I really didnt want to just plop out a blog of an OP, in fact I've been agonising over whether to post this or not, but this is something which has been such a hidden and "wrong" part of me for so long and to finally feel brave enough to embrace it, is liberating.
For once my fears are almost exciting rather than all encompassing and crippling. It's partly because of Lant_War 's recent thread and Kyuuji 's passion and all round loveliness that I have in recent weeks felt comfortable coming to terms with me, so maybe in turn this thread helps someone else even if only a tiny way. I'd normally feel quite rude singling people out in such a way but knowingly or not you both inspired me, the rest of TransERA have only helped to solidify that inspiration.
It also gave me the courage to tell my Mam and Sister this week how I feel, (albeit via phone since corona and 1000km), they were both great, though my sister told me I was a terrible big sister for waiting this long to tell her since she has known since I was 7 and she 6. I wept quite a lot this week.
The internet, gaming communities and even ERA gets a bad rep and perhaps for a lot of the time rightfully so, but on this occasion someone dared to reach out and they... She found only love and acceptance. Thankyou all
(I have had some not inconsiderable amount of wine) :). Sleep well, and thankyou again.
This is the first thread I've ever posted, I've never felt comfortable with putting any thoughts out there front and centre.
However I wanted to say a massive thankyou to TransERA for helping me finally take that first step after so many years of hiding and self loathing, for being so welcoming and understanding and generous with their time. Thankyou all for helping me come to terms with being transgender.
I really didnt want to just plop out a blog of an OP, in fact I've been agonising over whether to post this or not, but this is something which has been such a hidden and "wrong" part of me for so long and to finally feel brave enough to embrace it, is liberating.
For once my fears are almost exciting rather than all encompassing and crippling. It's partly because of Lant_War 's recent thread and Kyuuji 's passion and all round loveliness that I have in recent weeks felt comfortable coming to terms with me, so maybe in turn this thread helps someone else even if only a tiny way. I'd normally feel quite rude singling people out in such a way but knowingly or not you both inspired me, the rest of TransERA have only helped to solidify that inspiration.
It also gave me the courage to tell my Mam and Sister this week how I feel, (albeit via phone since corona and 1000km), they were both great, though my sister told me I was a terrible big sister for waiting this long to tell her since she has known since I was 7 and she 6. I wept quite a lot this week.
The internet, gaming communities and even ERA gets a bad rep and perhaps for a lot of the time rightfully so, but on this occasion someone dared to reach out and they... She found only love and acceptance. Thankyou all
(I have had some not inconsiderable amount of wine) :). Sleep well, and thankyou again.
