So Nerd dating advice columnist who's been featured on kotaku has been accused of sexual assault.
The person in question has told people to share her story.
Dr Nerdlove response
This is very disappointing to see as I thought his advice was good turns out his trash
The person in question has told people to share her story.
A brave friend of mine shared the name of her harasser, so others won't be scared to speak up, and more women don't experience this trauma.
Time for me to do the same.
Dr. Nerdlove (Harris O'Malley) assaulted me in the Sheraton bar in 2017. Thankfully, and horrifyingly, it happened surrounded by my friends and literary giants, so I could get away after he put me into a full PTSD shutdown.
It's a punch in the stomach every time I see him quoted in The Mary Sue as an ally. When I confronted him in 2018 to not come near me or my booth, his reply was that he hadn't even thought about it since that night. It haunted me every day from when it happened to when I returned to ECCC. And it still does. He made me feel small, scared, and like my body was there for the taking. Please don't let him do this to any other women.
::Edit:: Thanks everyone. After crying on my fiances should for awhile I'm no longer shaking and sobbing. The fracture he gave me, while mostly healed, still hurts like a mother when poked.
:Second Edit: I can't sleep. I'm shaking inside and out. I feel like vomiting. Just re-read his email. Still hurts. He apologizes profusely, but, the fact that he didn't even think about it again is the sucker punch. I don't want to ruin him, I just don't what him to hurt anyone else. Or if he has, let them know they're not alone.
Dr Nerdlove response
On Examining One's Behavior and Making Amends
I fucked up while flirting with a woman at a convention in 2017, but I didn't realize it at the time. A year later, I was made aware, apologized, and have worked on changing my ways. This week, I found out that the woman was is still very hurt over what happened; I can only apologize again for...
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I fucked up while flirting with a woman at a convention in 2017, but I didn't realize it at the time. A year later, I was made aware, apologized, and have worked on changing my ways. This week, I found out that the woman was is still very hurt over what happened; I can only apologize again for my behavior. If it can help others to learn from it and do better, here's what happened.
At Emerald City Comic Con in 2017, I was talking with a woman I met at a crowded hotel bar. Over the course of the conversation, I was flirting (my wife and I have an open relationship) and at the time, I believed we had a vibe going. At one point, I reached out and weaved my fingers through her hair and gave, what to me was a playful tug. She didn't respond, so I took my hand back. She mentioned that she simply wasn't up for or able to do anything. I said "ok, if you change your mind, let me know," hung out a little while longer and then eventually left to go to bed.
The next day as I was browsing through the dealer's room, I passed by her booth, said a brief hello and "it was nice talking to you last night", before heading about my day. The last time I have ever talked to her in person was a brief group conversation in the bar later that night.
Early in 2018, a friend of mine told me that this woman had felt violated by the entire encounter. I was surprised by this, but if I had done something wrong, then I was going to own that. I reached out, both via email and a mutual friend, to apologize (I've blacked out names and email addresses to protect people's privacy):
(image of email is on his site)))
When I sent my apology through a mutual friend, I made it clear that I was willing to apologize in person if the woman preferred, that I would be willing to stay away from her if we were ever at the same shows again, but, most importantly, that I wanted to make amends.
On February 10th, our mutual friend, in a Facebook Messenger chat, relayed the woman's response; she asked me to stay away and not speak to her.
I agreed; I have kept my distance and haven't spoken with her since. Hearing how this woman felt, I began to examine my behavior, including, among other things, the way I acted and flirted with others. I made a point of getting consent before making physical contact and checking in to ensure that everyone was still comfortable and interested. I spent time examining the ways that I remained inexcusably blind to other women's perspectives or experiences. I talked with various people about accountability, about doing better, about being more aware and more present and the ways that I had to improve. and My friends were honest with me about where I needed to change, which I appreciated and still appreciate. Being held accountable is important.
I also changed the way that I attended conventions. The same mutual friend agreed to come with me to the 2018 Emerald City Comic Con in mid-March, to be able to call me on my behavior if need be. I've caused harm with my mistakes; hopefully by talking about it openly, other people can do better and be better.
I understand that the person in question is still hurt by all of this. I behaved abominably, caused her pain and I am truly profoundly sorry.
This is very disappointing to see as I thought his advice was good turns out his trash