Hey everybody,
Yes, this is a serious post.
I know I've written way too many posts like this, to the point that nobody should take them seriously. I don't blame you at all. However, after this morning, I've decisively concluded that I don't want to participate in this topic anymore.
It has been an addiction for me, no doubt. I've come back to it time and time again because of my own weakness to this addiction, and I feel that my instincts which tell me not to participate have been right. I'm tired of being the fool, being mocked and ridiculed for sharing my bad, unpopular, and misguided opinions. I'm tired of fostering a bad reputation with significant people who know better than most how stupid my opinions are, including someone from a YouTube channel of which I have very fond and nostalgic memories (yes, I'm pretty young).
I'm most tired, as some in this topic could attest (especially Dark Cloud), of giving the impression that I'm trolling. I may seem disingenuous because of my own overly anxious and self-doubting posting habits and thought patterns, and I'm tired of worsening people's experience on the forum because of it. It is irresponsible to both myself and to the community I've grown to care about to continue posting, due to my own immaturity and sporadic mental health.
I'll still pay my dues. I owe chase beck a french toast sock video and EliR a video of me drinking my own urine, humiliatingly. My hubris is truly boundless. I'll post these when I get around to filming them, but otherwise I'm finally out, at least until I can get my head straight and stop making a fool of myself to everyone here. I can't handle the heat, and I'm finally getting out of the kitchen, as it were.
Nick / Raccoon
P.S. I apologize to the dozens of people reading who are now thinking whogivesashit_harrsionford.gif.
edit: Man, I did not want this to be at the top of the page
Racoon, I believe no one here wants you out this OT, even less ResetERA. You´re a cool person who is struggling. If someone mess with you, you should report them. I mean, I never was in the impression you were trolling. Neither everyone else, as it seems. If you want to take distance because it feels it would help you, do it by all means! But don´t do anything that could make you worse in any sense.
I´m speaking by myself, but I´m more than sure that nobody wants you out of this community. So, please, do what makes you happy. If it´s posting anything here, do it. But don´t harm yourself.