Hello. It is july 20th 2020, almost two full months into what I consider to be a pretty poor three month ban. I have appealed this ban several times with no communication reciprocated. I am somewhat frustrated by the lack of transparency. I have really only asked for one thing over these nearly two months: some form of communication. I am disappointed that you have still not reached out to me. I am also growing tired of this nonsense.
Luckily for me, when I wrote my last appeal I copied and pasted it into a document for the sake of getting a word count. Since I pasted it into a google doc, the magic of the internet has saved it and I am able to easily retrieve it. I will be pasting that message below. Everything that follows this paragraph is from my previous appeal. It may or may not be missing a few minor edits that I made after getting the word count, but the points all remain the same. I sincerely ask that you please read the appeal in full. Writing it took nearly an hour. If I can give you an hour of my time the least you can do is give me five to ten minutes of yours. Finally I would like to stress that I am not seeking to be unbanned (though I certainly wouldn't turn it down). At this point its been two months, getting unbanned wouldn't make me feel better. I just want to have a conversation. Once again, you can reach me at the email associated with this account (redacted email address).
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Hello resetera staff.
It is July 11th, and I am here yet again not only to appeal my ban but to request some sort of communication. I was banned for three months. I have served about a month and a half of that ban, and I am still waiting to hear back from someone on why I am serving a three month ban. I appealed the ban, and after appealing the ban it was EXTENDED from two weeks to three months. I still have received no explanation why that happened. I am asking for either an explanation or a ban reduction or even removal as I have already served a full month+ on what was originally a two week ban. I am justifiably frustrated by the lack of transparency and reason. I can still be reached at the email associated with this account (redacted email address). I have yet to receive any communication and I hope that changes in the near future. If you continue to ignore me I will continue to speak up.
However I will not go without explaining my side and my perspective again. I will try to do so in great detail. Because this message will likely take a lot of time and effort to write, I hope you will respect that and give me your time by reading it in full and taking my perspective into consideration. It's the leas you can do.
I was banned way back on May 28th for the post which I will link right now:
https://www.resetera.com/threads/mi...eadmarks-to-help.213759/page-15#post-35200098
In this post I respond to two individuals who, in the moment, I felt were justifying why it's ok for other innocent people to get hurt. I was upset with that and responded. Upon writing that post I received backlash and a few minutes later redacted the post because it was clear that I was in the wrong and I didn't want to fuel any further potential derailing in a sensitive thread. In my post I made it very clear that I support the protests and the fight for social justice and equality. That wasn't just some posturing or "bad faith" statement. It's how I genuinely feel and as because I genuinely feel that way I realized I misread the room and made efforts to remove that post.
That post only remains up right now because upon my ban someone on resetera's staff reverted my post. Instead of allowing me to understand my error and remove the post, resetera's mod and admin team (without my consent) quite literally spoke for me. I am understandably and justifiably frustrated by this because it gives the impression that I never chose to remove that post and thus paints me in a worse light. My reputation and name matters to me, and It is genuinely upsetting when someone else goes out of their way to toy with it. This is even more aggrivating when for the first several weeks of my ban that post did not have any tag that it was reverted by a mod. That tag was only posted on JUNE 8TH 2020 after HUNDREDS OF PAGES were added to the thread. It took until my first appeal for moderators to at least recognize that I did attempt to amend and redact my post, and it was far, far too late. I am VERY upset about that, but my issues with my ban go further than this.
In order to further explain myself, I would like to link this post which I will link right now:
https://www.resetera.com/threads/mi...eadmarks-to-help.213759/page-14#post-35199375
This post is important because it's sort of the post that started it all. This isn't some convenient excuse. If you take the time to read through the context of all of my posts and trace them all back you should be able to see it yourself. It is also worth noting that it is at this point of the thread where I first opened it up and entered into the discussion. This is one of the first posts in the thread that I read in the active discussion.
So why is this post so important? Because it shows exactly where my points were coming from. I want to make something VERY CLEAR right now though: It is obvious to me now that this unverified post was false. It was even obvious to me shortly after I started posting in that thread, and the fact that this source was unverified and likely even false also played into why I removed the post I was banned for. I was also going to remove my other posts in the thread for the same reason, but I got banned at the time so I wasn't able to. I guess I technically cant prove that I was in the process of also removing my other posts, but the fact that I did remove the post I was banned for (even though the mod staff reverted that redaction) should give me some credibility here.
When you take into context that this is the post I was basing much of my arguments on my position and perspective should be very clear. I know that in that moment there were many people concern trolling over damaged property and getting more upset about that than the murder of a black man. There should be no doubt after tracing my posts back to their origin and taking all context into consideration that I was not concern trolling over stupid targets or damaged property. My posts all were based on (what we now know to be false) information that people were trapped in burning buildings and responding to people who seemed not to care.
I don't think I was concern trolling at all. I responding to posts and conversations already happening in the thread. I would say that posting fake unverified news in a sensitive thread is much closer to concern trolling than anything I did. Yet I was banned for three months and the individual who made that post received no punishment. Now I'm not asking you to go back and retroactively punish that person. I think that would be silly and totally pointless and ineffective almost a month and a half out. I just want to point out what I feel to be inconsistency.
I have spent the vast majority of this message trying to disprove any concern trolling done. I have to imagine that concern trolling is the main reason I was banned. But, there are some other infractions listed in my ban message that I would also like to quickly address.
1) inflammatory accusation: I kind of think this one is a little bit of a stretch, but at least hear me out. In my post I said the following (this is copied and pasted directly from my post, it is the entirety of these so called "accusations" so that you don't think I am selectively quoting parts of my post. You are more than welcome to also refer the post itself for even more context)
"I absolutely support the protests and I'm disgusted by what happened, but these posts really bother me. So you're ok with more death coming from this? Or at least you're going to come up with excuses or rationals? That's disgusting. The only people who deserve to be hurt in this are the cops who caused it."
I'd say I'm asking them a question which they were more than welcome to answer with a "no." However, I too would be upset if someone even insinuated that I don't care about others so I'm not going to split hairs or argue semantics. I'm not super proud of how I engaged these posters and if I could do it differently I would.
2) abuse of the report system: I'll be honest I don't remember reporting anyone, but I'm sure you have the receipts so I'll take your word that it happened and that I was in the wrong here. This was about a month and a half ago and I'm more concerned about other issues regarding my ban, so you're going to have to forgive me for not remembering much about this part. It hasn't been my focus. Going forward I will not use the report system on era. I will leave that to the other users.
I just copied and pasted this message into a google doc. Doing so revealed to me that it is over 1400 words and that's just the above. I have given you a great deal of my time and put a lot of effort into this message. The least you can do is give me your time and at least consider my points. I don't know if you still have records of any past appeals, but if you do then it should be clear that I know I should have been better and I am willing to hold myself accountable for my mistakes. At the end of the day it's up to me to not derail threads based on unverified information. I can accept that I made a mistake and I was more than willing to serve my initial two week ban. My issue is that the ban was extended to three months with basically no explanation as to why outside of "after considering your appeals." Since my appeals were basically me apologizing for my actions I'm pretty confused by all of this.
I'm willing to admit my mistakes and grow. The question is are you? We all make mistakes. It's ok. But it's only ok if we make a real effort to grow. That was a sensitive thread and I understand that not even mods are going to act perfectly. I do think that sensitive threads should call for sensitive moderation in order to avoid these misunderstandings going forward, but it is what it is. A month and a half is a long time to serve a ban, but I'm willing to forgive and move on if you're willing to hear me out.
Again, you can contact me at the email associated with this account (redacted email address). You are welcome to use a burner account of your own if you chose.
Thank you for your time and consideration. I really hope I got it.