Not going to lie, it hurts like hell. I am so tempted to just cancel the author but keep the memories of the books intact. Same with MJ's music. While they will not see a dime from me in the future and I sure as shit will ensure to call them out in public from whatever limited position of power I have now or have in the future, my formative relationship with their works came before I learned what PoS they are.
I recently tried to listen to MJ's music recently but I have noticed this sense of discomfort that creeps in and grows until I switch to something else. Presumably, a similar sensation may gnaw at me if I was re-read HP books.
In the greater scheme of things, while it pains me (as it presumably does her other former fans), her influence on how I am perceived as a person is essentially nil compared to the dehumanizing she is doing to trans-people from her platform of immense influence and so IRL it is orders of magnitude more significant to the lives and livelihoods of a group of folks who are marginalized as is.
