This is about stuff in the gaming forum, but concerns one's overall behavior less than gaming, so... here it is.
I ate a five day ban for the way the discussion went in a Pokemon thread, and honestly, I really deserved it. While I stand by the fact that I think some aspects of that particular matter have their problems, my own behavior was inflammatory and I shouldn't have gone that route. Far too often, my online activity comes down to me looking for a fight, which leads to me not only making snap judgements, it boils things down to black and white and extremities, where I can't see the shades of gray. So I'll equate one bad thing with another, regardless of whether that comparison is apt.
But if it were just that, it wouldn't be as much of a problem. Like I said, I went looking for a fight, and I cared more about winning than respecting others. In the end, I wanted to be right, to feel like I was "winning". It's frankly, disgustingly immature, and what's more, I need to realize I just don't know as much as I think I do.
I've made so many mistakes in my life, and I don't want this to be the kind I keep repeating. So yeah. I'm gonna try to work on it.
I ate a five day ban for the way the discussion went in a Pokemon thread, and honestly, I really deserved it. While I stand by the fact that I think some aspects of that particular matter have their problems, my own behavior was inflammatory and I shouldn't have gone that route. Far too often, my online activity comes down to me looking for a fight, which leads to me not only making snap judgements, it boils things down to black and white and extremities, where I can't see the shades of gray. So I'll equate one bad thing with another, regardless of whether that comparison is apt.
But if it were just that, it wouldn't be as much of a problem. Like I said, I went looking for a fight, and I cared more about winning than respecting others. In the end, I wanted to be right, to feel like I was "winning". It's frankly, disgustingly immature, and what's more, I need to realize I just don't know as much as I think I do.
I've made so many mistakes in my life, and I don't want this to be the kind I keep repeating. So yeah. I'm gonna try to work on it.