I'm losing it. This coronovirus shit is driving up the wall with terror and I can't do this. I'm finally at a point in my life where I feel financially independent and I can't do anything because the whole world is going into lock down. I was just getting used to the freedom money could afford, seeing new things, meeting new people, things I'll never get here. I know I'm a selfish bastard, but I can't live trapped in my home/town, whatever. I had plans next year, at least three trips, probably all up smoke now. My goal was to eventually get away from damn small town permanently but I guess in the end I really am I going to die here.