I cant begin to tell you how much I feel this.It's embarrassing to me, and it's so trite but here I am. I'm just a zombie that hurts people with my bullshit, and I just want it to stop.
This is not true. There are still a million other options you haven't considered.I've tried really hard and have done everything, in my power, to do things the right way and I get nowhere.
uptodate.com said:SUMMARY
●The primary indication for ECT is severe major depression that is life-threatening or significantly impairs functioning. ECT is also indicated for patients with other illnesses, including bipolar disorder, schizoaffective disorder, schizophrenia, and neuroleptic malignant syndrome. (See 'Other psychiatric and medical indications' above and 'Indications' above.)
●ECT is the most effective and fastest acute treatment for major depression. Remission occurs in 70 to 90 percent of patients who receive ECT, based upon randomized trials. (See 'Efficacy' above and 'Speed of response' above.)
●ECT is often indicated for patients with unipolar psychotic depression, severe suicidality or malnutrition secondary to food refusal, or catatonia, as well as patients who present with recurrent depression and were successfully treated with ECT in the past after multiple medication trial failures. (See 'Indications' above and "Catatonia: Treatment and prognosis", section on 'Treatment' and "Unipolar major depression with psychotic features: Acute treatment", section on 'Electroconvulsive therapy' and "Unipolar depression in adults: Choosing treatment for resistant depression", section on 'Choosing treatment'.)
●ECT may be less risky than antidepressant and antipsychotic medication for patients who are debilitated and elderly. Pregnant and lactating patients worried about teratogenesis and other medication side effects can also be effectively and safely treated with ECT. (See 'Indications' above.)
●Older age is associated with a good response to ECT. Comorbid borderline personality disorder appears to be associated with decreased ECT efficacy. (See 'Older age' above and 'Comorbid borderline personality disorder' above.)
●Early improvement (eg, reduction of baseline symptoms by 30 percent) after six ECT sessions appears to be associated with remission by the end of treatment. (See 'Early improvement' above.)
There is absolutely no need to apologize dude. I'm just happy to see you respond and do something, anything. Thank you for responding and take your time reading all these wonderful people reaching out to you. It makes me teary seeing it too, you know. Keep fighting.After having panic attack and crying myself into a sickening migraine, I called a friend and she came and talked to me. She made me promise I wouldn't hurt myself, so I'll make it through the night.
It doesn't help that I've had five hours of sleep since Friday. My headache precludes me from reading all the replies, but I appreciate them and take them to heart. I'm supposed to call my doctor's nurse tomorrow, so needless to say, I'm going to be very honest and we'll see what happens from there.
I'm sorry for any unnecessary drama.
Please don't go through with it OP. Have you been in therapy lately? Do you have someone to talk to? Maybe a different combo of talking & meds could work better for you?
Please explore those options before doing something irreversible.
I love you ❤
You have absolutely nothing to apologize for OP. You did the right thing by reaching out to someone and to the great folks here on Era.After having panic attack and crying myself into a sickening migraine, I called a friend and she came and talked to me. She made me promise I wouldn't hurt myself, so I'll make it through the night.
It doesn't help that I've had five hours of sleep since Friday. My headache precludes me from reading all the replies, but I appreciate them and take them to heart. I'm supposed to call my doctor's nurse tomorrow, so needless to say, I'm going to be very honest and we'll see what happens from there.
I'm sorry for any unnecessary drama. My feelings have been bottled up for months.
Tonight will be your toughest night yet, my friend, and if you can make it through tonight then you can make it through any other night too. We're all here willing you on! You've fucking got this brother :) It sounds like you need a good solid rest, the sleep deprivation will be wreaking havoc on your emotions too. I'm proud of you for reaching out here and to your friend, that takes real strength! Use that same strength to get yourself through this and lean on as many people as you can, we're all here for YOU!After having panic attack and crying myself into a sickening migraine, I called a friend and she came and talked to me. She made me promise I wouldn't hurt myself, so I'll make it through the night.
It doesn't help that I've had five hours of sleep since Friday. My headache precludes me from reading all the replies, but I appreciate them and take them to heart. I'm supposed to call my doctor's nurse tomorrow, so needless to say, I'm going to be very honest and we'll see what happens from there.
I'm sorry for any unnecessary drama. My feelings have been bottled up for months.
Tonight will be your toughest night yet, my friend, and if you can make it through tonight then you can make it through any other night too. We're all here willing you on! You've fucking got this brother :) It sounds like you need a good solid rest, the sleep deprivation will be wreaking havoc on your emotions too. I'm proud of you for reaching out here and to your friend, that takes real strength! Use that same strength to get yourself through this and lean on as many people as you can, we're all here for YOU!
I hate to post this and I'm not usually the type to do so, but I'm at a loss.
I've dealt with crippling depression and anxiety since childhood, and it's gotten progressively worse since I've gotten older. I went back on meds, and the same thing is happening now what usually happens — I'll deal with horrible side effects for 2-3 weeks, I'll have a decent week and then take a turn for the worst. I've tried really hard and have done everything, in my power, to do things the right way and I get nowhere.
I thought this morning about going out and buying supplies to hang myself. I don't want to live anymore, it's like a nightmare I can't wake up from and one I can't even escape in my sleep — when I can sleep. I'm at my wits end, and I don't the the fight to keep on trying different medications and dealing with the side effects to end up with the same result.
I'm very upset and frustrated, and I don't want to deal with this shit anymore. I've had enough.
After having panic attack and crying myself into a sickening migraine, I called a friend and she came and talked to me. She made me promise I wouldn't hurt myself, so I'll make it through the night.
It doesn't help that I've had five hours of sleep since Friday. My headache precludes me from reading all the replies, but I appreciate them and take them to heart. I'm supposed to call my doctor's nurse tomorrow, so needless to say, I'm going to be very honest and we'll see what happens from there.
I'm sorry for any unnecessary drama. My feelings have been bottled up for months.
Yup, been noticing this trend for a while here and wondering why it's so prevalent on this community when it isn't like this at all on other forums.
It always sucks that there's so many people who feel this way, but just doing some quick numbers: About 10 million people consider ending their life every year in the US, or 3% of the population. It's a lot, far too many unfortunately.it's getting really disturbing how common these types of threads have become.
You have nothing to be sorry for Jombie. You're not alone and you don't have to carry it all on your shoulders never getting a break.I'm sorry for any unnecessary drama. My feelings have been bottled up for months.
After having panic attack and crying myself into a sickening migraine, I called a friend and she came and talked to me. She made me promise I wouldn't hurt myself, so I'll make it through the night.
It doesn't help that I've had five hours of sleep since Friday. My headache precludes me from reading all the replies, but I appreciate them and take them to heart. I'm supposed to call my doctor's nurse tomorrow, so needless to say, I'm going to be very honest and we'll see what happens from there.
I'm sorry for any unnecessary drama. My feelings have been bottled up for months.
Again, I'd like to thank everyone for their kind and encouraging words and advice. I'm so exasperated that I can barely think, so maybe I'll feel better when / I can get some sleep.
I hate to post this and I'm not usually the type to do so, but I'm at a loss.
I've dealt with crippling depression and anxiety since childhood, and it's gotten progressively worse since I've gotten older. I went back on meds, and the same thing is happening now what usually happens — I'll deal with horrible side effects for 2-3 weeks, I'll have a decent week and then take a turn for the worst. I've tried really hard and have done everything, in my power, to do things the right way and I get nowhere.
I thought this morning about going out and buying supplies to hang myself. I don't want to live anymore, it's like a nightmare I can't wake up from and one I can't even escape in my sleep — when I can sleep. I'm at my wits end, and I don't the the fight to keep on trying different medications and dealing with the side effects to end up with the same result.
I'm very upset and frustrated, and I don't want to deal with this shit anymore. I've had enough.
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