I would love to write for a publication and be paid for it, but I've been extremely discouraged by the lack of diversity and inclusion across all (mainstream) gaming publications. I'm also reminded frequently that gaming hates people like me through the various displays of racism, ableism and very real experiences of invisibility. I need more time, too, and unlike my days in education, I don't know of any place that would make allowances for my condition. So, I worry about my health, safety and happiness. Can't help feeling that as a thirty-something, the chance to find a stable career in that arena has gone, so, apart from a few snippets here and there on social media, and my blog page, I'm trying to find a disturbed peace with that.