I need to vent, this has been an epically shitty day. Part of it is my own damn fault, being broken from an ex and not fully healing makes it easier to take offense and break down emotionally I guess.
I have with various success broken off romances and friendships with 3 different women in one day.
1) I met a woman abroad earlier this year and she's touring Europe as we speak. We've never had sex but have kissed and had lunch together. She's been bugging me on and off to come visit her and I truly wanted to too. Recently she suggested I come to Spain for a threesome, with the caveat that I pay for a 3 people hotel stay. Due to lack of trust and "if it sounds too good to be true..." I backed off, feeling like this was nothing but a scam. The friendship turned tainted over this imo and I decided it was broken beyond repair as even though we had kinda sorta made peace over it, she stopped responding to messages when I was about to take a leave of absence from work to go to her. Kinda confirmed that something was wrong with the picture. So I may or may not have fucked up a Brazilian threesome over nothing, we'll never know. She took the news a bit too well, heh.
2) I had made semi-serious plans with a woman who was coming to town for a few days over this weekend. That was about a month ago. Shortly after, she fell into the same old no response pattern that I've had enough of. Silence for 3 weeks and messages ignored. I realized that I haven't been true to myself around her. I've been more upset over her behavior than I've let on. Our plans fell through as expected and that was the last straw for me :/ We remain casual friends though, talking about it together like adults solved a lot of the issues, but since she lives about 2000 kilometers away, chances are I'll never see her ever again. Our interest levels never matched up properly and it's been kinda a waste of time. I'm more upset with myself fornletting it go this far, than I am with her.
And 3) I met a really sweet and beautiful girl at a rave on friday/night to saturday. We started making out within a couple of minutes, I even got to act as a door blocker from within the bathroom stall lol. It didn't turn sexual as one might expect but still. We danced a bit, we spent maybe an hour chatting and making out in a sofa. She turned a bit shy as we were about to go home together, saying she isn't that kind of girl basically. But we still walked to a burger place together, and more or less forgot to eat our food because we both seemed so enthralled with each other. She begged me to promise that I would contact her on instagram so we can meet again later this week, which I of course agreed to. Since she had made it clear we were not gonna sleep together (innuendo or otherwise), I respected her wishes and went home by taxi. I'm not pushy, in fact I was probably too passive as I didn't really escalate beyond kissing. We said good night over instagram after I came home, and she sent some flirty emojis and sweet messages.
Today I text her casually, wishing her a safe and fun work trip that she's taking this week. Then she drops the bomb that she's sorry about leading me on and that she only wants to be friends. Like wtf?! Where did that come from? Am I even chatting with the same person? XD So now that is more than likely ruined, I'm terrible at making the right decision under negative pressure so I didn't call her out on any of it. And if it was a shit test, I failed miserably simple because I refuse to play that game. She also had the gall to say that she got the impression that I was the one who had probably already fallen for her a bit too fast lol. Sure, I might've been enamored with her, but already in love is too much, which I told her.
I don't understand how you can beg someone to contact them, and even make plans to meet a second time so we can properly enjoy ourselves, her words basically, and make out with a stranger for hours and even go have food together with no friends around, and then in 24 hours time go to saying that "she feels no attraction whatsoever"...
I feel cursed. Bad shit keeps happening, friends are literally starting to ask what's going on :/
Rant over, but jfc :( I'm butthurt af over this.
