Watching the movie a second time really made me appreciate the whole thing so much more.
I love it the first time, but moments like Tony's death and Nat's death were sad the first time, but I was so shocked and in denial that they'd actually stay dead that I missed how well they were both done with subtle moments. I missed that Rhodey was the first at Tony's side because he doesn't say much, if anything, it's just this silent checking on his friend with an acknowledged goodbye. Even Pepper staying strong for Tony to reassure him that they'd be okay and letting him rest to her breakdown as he passes if just heartbreaking, then of course I also missed his arc reactor light blinking off before his hand falls. Since I'm talking about Tony, RDJ's meltdown once he gets back to Earth is so powerful in the despair he feels and to see where he gets to with Pepper and Morgan in a cabin in the woods, it drive the point home more that he has so much to lose.
That scene with Nat and Clint I saw coming from the moment they were both going to Volmir the first time I saw it but I didn't notice all the moments leading up to that moment like Nat's "See you in a minute" joke before they time jump or Clint and Nat's joking with each other the whole mission (Clint's "we've come a long way since Budapest" or whatever the line was). The fight between them was the most spy type shit fight and was so bad ass and emotional. They kept betraying each other just so the other person wouldn't be able to make the sacrifice, and each time they'd get a slow motion shot as if we were about to see their sacrifice and each time they wouldn't let it happen, until Nat outwits Clint so he has no choice but to let her fall. That scene fucked me up so bad the second time I saw it because she wins so hard being the better spy by putting Clint in a position to not be able to make the choice, but from Clint's perspective, he realized he fucked up by fighting her on it because she outsmarted him and he was stuck having to literally let his best friend drop to her death. You see him notice she hooked the grapple to his belt and he tries to pull them both up but has no leverage and she has her fingers straight out like she isn't even trying to help him hang on. I still question how genuine Thanos' love for Gamora is in IW, but this scene just ripped my heart out. Then seeing Clint not just as he realized what happened but seeing him crumble as he comes back and the look on Bruce and Steve's faces, the other closest friends to Nat, just kill me. The whole build up of her holding on to trying to find Clint while he's on this bloody and destructive path and how she's trying to still hold on to being a good strong person working at trying to help others in this life she's been able to grow into is just brutal, especially after watching her growth with my recent marathon. Like we've seen how close her and Steve grow despite them starting as spies that are so different in personalities to the point where she flies out to Peggy's funeral just to support Steve, from spilling SHIELD's secrets in a congressional hearing to representing the Avengers in the Sokovia signing as a diplomat or emissary to basically being the new Avengers/"SHIELD" director, she lowkey grows a ton as a person. And even with Clint on a rampage of vigilantism, her heart just pours out for the hurt of her friend losing his family.
And of course seeing the movie knowing how Cap's ending pays off, his whole arc has been losing everything he used to know and trying to move on but then just trying to hold on to the people he had left like Bucky and Peggy. We got to spend time with the characters, but I think it was unfortunate how in TFA, most of the likely months that he spends with the Howling Commandos fighting alongside Bucky, obviously on top of being his childhood friend, as well as how much time got to see Peggy, or at least would see her but never got a chance to spend quality time with her since it was wartime. It was unfortunate from a standpoint of just wanting to see more, but I think as an audience, we don't feel quite the same sense of loss as Steve does; we don't get to know Bucky as well and spend more time with him as the Winter Soldier, who is Bucky as a different, changed person, and we see Peggy and Steve's budding romance, but it glosses over how strong their connection was where he was carrying her picture with him for so many years but they never got a chance. In the movie, it makes it seem like Steve and Peggy barely get to meet before they do a couple missions and she kisses him and then they never get to have their first dance, but they were in the middle of a war and likely just didn't have time for love until it was too late. This movie really brings back around how Cap tells everyone how important it is to move on and be optimistic, but he's not able to do it. He's never resentful about it like he could be, but having a mind control vision of dancing with Peggy is not the same as actually going to the past and seeing how close he is to get a chance to talk to her again, especially after losing her in the present, and practicing the restraint to carry on with the mission and not compromise it for himself. I'm really happy that this is Cap's end. I was disappointed that Civil War didn't get a chance to wrap but things for Steve since I thought that would be the last chance he'd get, like Tony did in his trilogy and Thor did in his. Cap didn't get his ending even though I thought it needed a conclusion to at least being able to get his friend Bucky back or move on with a new romance in Sharon. Anything that at least gave the poor guy some closure to the tragedy of his life circumstances. In that way, I know some people wanted Cap's conclusion to be a hero's death of sacrifice on the battlefield, but Cap would do that without question anyways. Him jumped on a grenade as a skinny guy, so I thought he deserved some happiness and fulfillment out of his life rather than always chasing it and dying without finding something, like the deep love he longed to have with Peggy. Tony get's to have the heroes' death because that is something he started out as being unwilling to do, "unwilling to make the sacrifice play" as Steve says, so it means so much more when he does it when he has built a family and has everything to lose. Steve would sacrifice everything but never got his chance to find love or have his own family, he's always been the warrior, the soldier, fighting for others and rarely really getting a chance to fight for himself, besides Bucky (so technically that is a lot, but in Steve's mind, he's fighting for the person he believes Bucky is/was rather than just because he wants to have his best friend back around).
I also noticed how Steve's last moment with Bucky, with their "don't do anything stupid while I'm gone" and "you're taking all the stupid with you" is Steve signalling to Bucky that he might not be coming back. Bucky even says "I'm going to miss you, pal" right before he's about to go when Sam and Hulk think he's just going to be gone for 5 seconds. Bucky even starts to look around as Sam and Bruce try to figure out what happened. Even after Bucky notices Steve on the bench, he signals to Sam to see for himself who it is, smiling to himself like he already knows that it's going to be Cap waiting right there for them. And of course everything following that is perfect with the hand off of the shield to Sam, Steve not wanting to talk about Peggy while he smiles to himself, and then it fading to their dance. That ending really takes the movie to high heights since it leaves you with one of the most earned moments and leaves you feeling good walking out of the theater.
If I would have known for sure that Cap and Tony die before going into the movie, I might have been pissed, especially since I have resisted the idea since I didn't feel like they've gotten to a place where a good conclusion could be reached in an Avengers film, especially if it meant being killed by fucking Thanos, but they pulled it off so well, I'm not even mad. I'm happy that they got the endings they did over my own selfish wants of more story with them and how I wanted to see them concluded in their own movies. Also I wouldn't have expected Widow to die in a serious way and I wouldn't have expected her to have such a satisfying sacrifice, but I do feel upset that she didn't get to find her own happiness other than giving her life so her best friend can have his and many other people can have theirs. Unlike Tony and Steve who are probably done forever, she's coming back, so even though I'm guessing it will be a prequel sort of approach, maybe we get a chance to see how her relationships with Clint, his family, and Fury grew to really help her to begin to change her life from her old ways to find more meaning. Although, thinking about it a little more, I think Widow's arc through the MCU had been set up in The Avengers of having "red in her ledger" and trying her best to be able to feel content in her redemption. It does seem why she takes on the "director" job as well as why she says that everything has been leading up to the moment at the cliff. I think that was her finally feeling like she was able to give everything she had to help others and atone for her past.
This movie is so great. If you couldn't tell, it really satisfies my investment as a fan in these characters.