On the first point - very much so, unfortunately. Anecdotally I'd also argue there's more pressure on girls to start masking their autistic behaviours early, as part of general social conformity, where a greater general leniency for boys means there's more opportunity for their less neurotypical traits to demonstrate themselves.
I think that's accurate AF. I definitely displayed classic autistic behaviors from a very young age, but was also subject to intense pressure to hide them. Getting the correct diagnosis in my 30s has helped immensely -- I can now see a clear trajectory between repression of autistic traits and development of other unhealthy behaviors in adulthood. Being "trained" not to stim, for example, led to suicidal urges and substance abuse as an adult. Since I've consciously focused on reclaiming normal stimming, the desire to engage in unhealthy behaviors has diminished drastically.
These realizations have led me to advocate strongly against ideas and practices that involve autistics being conditioned to behave like allistics -- ABA therapy, for example, has been the gold standard of autistic treatment for a long time, but I think it's more akin to gay conversion therapy. It attempts to fix something that isn't a problem and fails to address the lack of social awareness/accommodation by others that is actually the real issue. It's easier to place the burden of change on the most vulnerable cohorts of society than it is to change the society itself, but that doesn't mean it's ethical or even effective.
We do have an autistic OT, though the question of meal replacements hasn't come up so much. I admit, I'm not the biggest fan of medication or strictly dietary applications in aiding with the condition - though realising they clear do help others - if partly because I found gluten-free so lacking in flavour and texture that it actually made me feel worse (not to mention the realisation of needing something different hit in the usual places).
Yup, I posted in the autistic OT when it was first made. I haven't kept up with it like I should've, though.
Maybe we ought to post about dietary restrictions in that thread -- crowdsource some suggestions for how to navigate it? Though I know for me it's often hard to enact helpful ideas because of the sheer fact that it would involve a change in routine.
And yeah, restricted food preferences don't happen in the majority of autistic people, but it happens often enough that it is generally presumed that people who do have it, do so because of their autism. Not helped that you can simultaneously have: ritualistic eating habits - ie, eating a meal at the exact time in the exact configuration, prepared with the precise equipment - an actual restriction on the enjoyment of taste - aka why onions can go to hell - but also a sensory limitation - what I dislike about mash potatoes is less the flavour (though it is bland as hell) and more the fact it downright feels like vomit on my tongue.
Ritualistic/routine behaviors are indeed a core feature of autism -- I still think the actual extremes of limited diet are a different (though related) phenomenon. What you're describing sounds a lot like ARFID, though you make a valid point about folks presuming it's because of autism -- I suspect that's because ARFID itself is so misunderstood and largely unknown. I mean, so is autism to a large extent, too...
Learning how to cook things differently helped me with sensory limitations re: food. Like how boiled brussels sprouts are gross, but sauteed ones are great. Also using my ranks in "Autistic Focus" to read about nutrition, which motivated me to read about cooking, which motivated me to try different things differently. I approached it like trying to level up a character in a video game. Now I like my own cooking better than anything I can buy at the store or get prepared at a restaurant, which has been a pretty big adulting win. I've come a long way from my days of eating exclusively white rice and Carnation Instant Breakfasts.
Then again, I don't have ARFID -- just ritualistic habits and sensory issues. It's a whole different ballgame for someone with a legit eating disorder, I'm not trying to downplay your difficulties at all. None of these workarounds would have helped my Dad whatsoever.
Potatoes are overrated IMO. Not enough nutritive value or decent flavor unless augmented substantially by other ingredients. I don't blame you for shunning mashed taters, hahah -- they're not worth the hype. Ditto for hot dogs, they're so nasty I can't believe they're even legal.
As for the stuff on internalised shame... I can get that. My perspective on it is that I feel there are genuinely flaws and difficulties in being autistic - as much as there are also some surprising perks - but that regardless of those, my existence is a valid one. I am not the same as others, but that does not make my existence in and of itself any lesser. That said, I recognise I've got a fair bit of privilege where I'm in a comfortable enough situation that I can think about things in such terms; I can view the likes of Autism Speaks as this distant thing across the ocean, rather than the primary body of advice that people in the country will turn to, as just one instance of that. I deal with the anti-vax crowd, sure, but the way I describe myself has generally been free to not worry about someone using that as an excuse to rationalise, basically, eugenics. I've not had someone implicitly talk to me about a 'cure' until this week, where some American tourist hoped that 'you get better', and his tone did not make that about improvement. Not everyone has that luxury, and I probably should have considered that when I came in here; I do apologise for that.
No apologies necessary. I do really appreciate the articulation of your perspectives and experiences. Thanks for putting this much thought and effort into our dialogue. :)
We have flaws and difficulties and perks, yes, but I think that's true of everyone, autistic or not. Just because ours are pretty specific doesn't mean we're better or worse than allistics. My coworkers might be able to perform customer service roles that I can't, but I'm able to perform food service feats that they can't. They embrace change far easier than I do, but I excel at the routines and standards that bore most folks to tears. It takes both kinds of people to make a great team, and I've learned to value highly those talents I bring to the table which are part and parcel of being autistic.
I think a key part of this is recognizing that it's not about judging everyone by the same standards, but rather understanding that the best results come from helping each other maximize our capabilities while minimizing our challenges. There's no such thing as a human being that exists without the support of other human beings in some way, shape, or form. Most of the judgments we place on what kind of support is normal or not are pretty arbitrary, even fundamentally outdated or at worst, bigoted. "Survival of the fittest" as it's used in ordinary discourse is, IMO, a butchering of the concept -- in a civilized, democratic kind of society, fitness may very well be gauged not by our ability to compete or dominate, but by our willingness to empathize and cooperate. In that sense, I think folks like us -- folks like Eric McKay and my recent new hero, Greta Thunberg -- are integral to a prosperous future for not just our species, but our entire planet.
Indeed; at times it's actually almost too easy to be empathetic towards something because you may end up viewing a situation in the simplest terms, without any other complications or rationale involved. He saw people in trouble, had a chance to help them, so he did.